Letting Go

Since August, I have had the great privilege of being a part of a moms’ group called BLOOM (Building a Legacy Out of Motherhood).  In recent weeks, we have gone through a study called Chase, written by Jennie Allen.  

Chase is a short study on the life of David.  Jennie delves into the extraordinary story of a reckless sinner who God called “a man after His own heart.”  Yes, these two can co-exist!  A reckless sinner and a man that God undeniably favors…whether the sinner is David of Bible or you or me!  

In the study, Jennie invites us to name the things that we are chasing…things we pursue and stop at nothing to get…in order to fill the empty places in the hidden corners of our souls.  Approval, financial security, pleasure, comfort, control, recognition, morality, kids’ success, leadership, clothes, possessions…just to name a few.  

If you’ve lived even a short number of years on this earth, you know none of these things deliver lasting peace or satisfaction or freedom.  I believe there is one Person worth “chasing” who can, though.  God Himself.  Yet…

Chasing after Him is costly and scary and uncomfortable and exciting and amazing beyond my wildest dreams.  And if you were to ask me to sum up the past year of my life in one word, and more specifically, these recent months of going through Chase, I would say “Yikes!” as in, God is ushering us into a journey that I am scared of and unsure of yet unusually quite relieved and peaceful in.  My dear friend Penny said it best last night on Facebook…”When did we get the idea that following Christ was supposed to be safe and comfortable?”  

You better believe I want the Christian life to be “comfortable,” seeing that comfort is one of the things I chase routinely!  Slowly but surely, I am learning that stepping out into the unknown and uncomfortable is right where He wants me.  I have nothing left but Him.  And that is a very good thing.

Two weeks ago at BLOOM, they gave us balloons on which we wrote what we are chasing in place of a relationship with God, what we are struggling with, tribulations that are weighing heavy.  We walked outside on a perfectly beautiful spring day and released the balloons..signifying surrender and release of these things to Him.  

I gave my balloon to a friend to release so I could snap a few photos with my phone.  I’m so glad I did, because I completely love these images and what they represent.  
Just like a balloon that eventually you can no longer see rising in the sky, I long for the things I listed on my balloon to become “hard to see” simply because I am staring in the face of a tender, compassionate, loving Father.  

Let me ask you…What are you chasing?  

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  1. Such an innocent honesty to admit that following God can be very uncomfortable. I’m glad at the end of it all, you had a very nice realization of how loving the Father is. 🙂 I love your post. 🙂


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  2. Thank you for sharing this. If I’m being honest, most of the time I don’t take much time to actually read all of the blogs I get, especially on a night like tonight when I haven’t checked my email in a few days. I’ll scroll through them and see if there are any scrapbook images I want to pin or check out and then go to the next one. But I was prompted to read this one and I’m glad I did. I might have to check out this Chase Bible study. I’m in a place right now that is definitely not comfortable. I’m concerned about finances and mine and my husbands jobs — he’s a teacher in a parish that’s cutting back on the number of employees and I’m wanting to get certified to teach and hoping to have a job next school year. We know every penny comes from God but we still struggle. And it seems as though more and more keeps getting piled on top — bills to pay, a roof that needs fixing, gas is going up… So many things that just make it daunting to even try to think how we’re ever going to catch up. But what you said makes sense — we need to be comfortable in our uncomfortableness with God. We need to trust that He is taking care of us and rest in that, no matter what. Our peace comes from knowing He is in control and not the circumstances He allows. Thank you for being God’s vessel in posting this.

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